giving up

when hope drains out, possibilities shower. have faith, and you'll be just fine.
sesuatu yg baik itu mungkin lambat hadirnya.

hope that's a good start. cause this is what i hold on to. right at this very moment. yes.
but why so serious nanue? and why now?

all i could ever think of was never myself. well, it was all about myself, really, but via crowds' eyes. after all that i've gone through, i sat on to myself and wondered, why on earth never have i thought about being me, seeing me through my own eyes? all i've been doing was pleasing others, wanting them to know how much i cared, but at the same time letting loose the egoism and veiled the true meanings i had in each and every step i took.

having said that, i feel angry. i feel like living a fake, fake world when everything i honestly did being misinterpreted.
so then i decided to give it an end and focus on giving chances to myself instead.

but please, this clearly has nothing to do with me trying to be goddish, deciding what should or shouldn't be happening in one's life or whatnots. this has got to do with the whys we have in life.

oh, did i mention all i need is time? T.I.M.E. masa. waktu. was it too much?

these senses came knocking, so i willingly let them in and i wish they'd stay there longer.
and you. shut it please, knowing none but acting omniscient is a shame.

ok,now i need my beauty sleep

8 Comments:

  1. wan said...
    'when hope drains out, possibilities shower. have faith, and you'll be just fine'

    i have to admire this line. all we need is faith x)
    cheers~
    Nanue said...
    yah, yes. thank you mr.

    i know i shall give myself a back-pat. words of wisdom come out when you're at the edge of cliff kot. that's where i'm at now.
    wan said...
    can't help much, but hang in there x)
    Anonymous said...
    Aiyyooo psal ayat dlm blog ko mcm familiar je ngan status FB aku. Huhu.. Status FB tu aku tujukan kat sorang budak kt mcgill (bukan malaysian) yang tidak gembira melihat aku bahagia. Dan wanita itu telah mendoakan agar aku jadi mcm budak indonesia yang bunuh diri kat singapura tu sebab aku tak dengar ckp die.

    Tension gile tau. Tak pasal2 ade musuh sebab org jeles.

    Tapi i would conclude I am in the same boat as yours. Too much about pleasing others that u've no chance to express your VERY OWNSELF! Huh.. *marah dengan diri sendiri*

    Still, bak kate kawan aku kat alberta, this is called the informal education.. Pembelajaran menjadi lebih dewasa, lebih matang n membina personality diri.. Amboi skema ayat aku.

    People change gradually over time. Hopefully from good to better.

    Salam Maulidulrasul =)
    Nanue said...
    acting goddish yada yada. yes. buahaha soryla xcredit yah, saye tertarik dengan phrase itu. ampun ye anem, saye boldkan sbb saye quote from you. tp xberkesempatan nak credit.

    and yes. i agree dengan anda 100%.

    take care anem. jg diri baik2 kat sana. jgn monyok2...
    Anonymous said...
    ahaks, dun worry ina. Aku bukannye nak credit, aku memule bace tu terberenti jap jantung aku sebab aku ingat kan ko terase dgn ape yg aku tulis kat FB. Sebab aku tujukan menda tu kat orang lain kan, tetibe org len plak yg terase.. Tersumbat injap peparu aku. Huhu. ^_^

    Lega sket hati bile tau yg ko cume tertarik ngan phrasa itu.. hehe.. terima kasih la kerana tertarik btw.. *terharu*

    Thanks btw. ko pun, jage diri okes?

    Muaaaaahhhhxxxxx!
    Akak cun said...
    I am done with crowd pleasing. I am letting it all go now. org nak hangin ke, org nak hapa ke. I just dont care anymore. cewahhh.. macam aku pulak menulis post ni.. p/s anem, akak ke montreal minggu depan Insyaa Allah
    Anonymous said...
    akak pon in the same boat ke? hadeh, marilah move on kak....

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