This foolish game

Blabbed by Nanue at 6:42 PM


I'm slowly getting tired of my relationship. And whatever games that we're playing.
It has no dynamic, it is very one-sided and I'm too tired of being the one to light up the sparks all the time.
To be the one that's chasing, the one that's navigating this ship.
My energy is slowly sinking.

I'm a girl and I need to feel loved and be loved all the time. My love don't cost a thing. If you think you can get by everything with this "longevity" ticket we have in hands, you're absolutely wrong.

Sayang, I'm tired. Of nothingness.
This you-ness of you is not what I look for in a man. I loved you for who you are. But that love never bounced back. It never will.

I'm giving up. Because I now figured that I love myself more than I love you.

What did I get myself into?

 

3 Comments:

  1. Shafiqah M said...
    March 14, 2011 at 4:58 PM  
    Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being in love which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.

    -Captain Corelli's Mandolin

    P.s. I experience the same thing too. I think this is what love really is. Hope you're enlightened. Blue skies your way :)
    Nanue said...
    March 19, 2011 at 3:52 PM  
    :') I'm speechless Shaf. It's good to have therapeutic lines coming my way, especially in times when I feel like all that I've been doing ended up in vain. It's good to have someone to knock my senses back in. Thank you =)
    Anonymous said...
    April 4, 2011 at 7:13 PM  
    Selagi dia tak give up, awak jangan give up.

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