Hi everyone, I hope I'm being missed.
I was crazy-busy for the past few weeks (due to some inexplicable, malevolent forces of higher education's nature) that I haven't got much time to pull the strings and stitch up some good, read-worthy posts to put up on my blog. Alhamdulillah, I got it all out of the way and I can say that I'm pretty much done with Undergrad, insyaAllah. Except for this one elective subject that I have to sit for this coming Apr 8th, which isn't much of a stress for me, hopefully. As of now, I'm literally counting my days to be done with school, I can't wait for the day of my convocation ceremony and then I'll be leaving this Great White North for good. That departure day would definitely be an intense emotional cascade, something that I don't look forward to because after all these while, to me, Ottawa has been my playground for the past 4 years and leaving it would be an ultimate despair. My physical may not have grown as much, but this place moulded this Zaharina you see today. It moulded my personality. Who I was 4 years back isn't the same as who I am today. I guess we all are. As much as I love my country, I can't help but to also have an affair with this one. Canada please, don't you ever forget about this tiny girl who sang you many songs and cried you gallons of tears.
Holyyy, we finally bypassed all stages with cocktail of grace and bitterness, friends. It's game over for us after 4 gruelling years. 4 years! Oh how time flies.
That sad story aside, today I'm sharing an important lesson I learnt a few days ago. On my last day of lecture, Dr. Aitken reminded us of how important it is to have passion and desire in whatever we choose to do in life. While discussing about what to do once the curtain falls, she advised us not to jump into something just because everyone else is doing it; or because your mother/brother/sister/colleagues/friends told you to; or because you don't want to feel left out, and many other cliche-loaded excuses. Being in this field, she complained about students who ended up doing something they aren't thoroughly soaked in, something that's far out of their league. Her voice was filled with disappointment when she addressed this issue to us, as though we were one of those people. And if what we chose doing brought us to nothingness, don't give up easily, just brave yourself to pick up the pieces and reassemble them, take a different route and patiently pave the way to what you dreamed of.
Start by picturing yourself in 10 years time. What do you see yourself as, what you think you're gonna be dressed in. Doesn't matter if you see yourself in a white lab-coat, a suit, a uniform, or a pair of baju kurung. From there, begin tracing on how you're going to go from the point you're at right now, to that picture you had in mind. Build your own map, sort of. The point at where we're starting at is the same: That stage where you take your scroll. I have friends considering for Master's degree, a friend that wants to pursue business instead of science, friends that want to land a good career, and many many more. She told us that Grad school is for people that are wholeheartedly compassionate in research and committing to their work, people that don't come up with excuses. Dr Aitken told us to give ourselves a little more options instead of opting for only one. Talk to a lot of people, ask around and don't be shy to beg for opinions from all corners possible. Gather them all and when deciding for what's best for the next step, box them together and put it aside. Think about what would work the best to your ability and detect any biased elements derived from the persons you gathered your opinions from. Bear in mind that there's fallacy invested in their opinions and once you've decided on what to do and are about to take the first step, consider these opinions and find which one suits you best. People's routes may not cater to your ability and preferences. So don't blindly follow others, just because. Think about what you want to do, and what you're willing to throw in the game to reach the finish line. And of course, on your way up, there's going to be a lot of emotional stresses involved but that never means your game's over. Never give up, and never regret your decision. Never let the hurdles hinder you from reaching your goal. Take it as a part of the many processes necessary to establish yourselves.
On the note of pursuing into a Master's degree, I'm sure they're fun for others. As for me. If all else fail, I may have to consider that option. But I need to first develop an intense, burning desire to continue studying, because I don't want to rape the beauty of learning with desire. But right now, I haven't managed to unveil that desire yet. I just can't decide on what to do after. Alas, the Secret of Adulthood is true; just because something is fun and do-able for someone else, doesn't make it do-able and fun for me. The decision making is a bit of a struggle in my book. Both spectrums displayed generous amount of pros and cons. Whatever I choose doing, I hope I won't be second-guessing myself halfway on the lane. Allah is great, He really is. He paved the way nicely for me to walk through and left me a tick box to fill in.
So folks, whatever you plan on doing, always put your hearts to it. It will work. Always.
So, good luck in choosing and deciding!
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just out of curiosity,what do u imagine to look like in 10 years time?