I just got off the phone with my mother. Minutes of convincing went down the drain. I'm pretty sure it did.
On a second thought, I actually don't want my school years to end. Because my ending won't be as sharp, it'll be blunt. Blunt like the surface of a ball. Lonely, like the last black M&M piece in my pack of M&M bag.
Wow, for my future's uncertainty. Wow, for the test of love and patience. For those who get what they wanted, be grateful.
BE GRATEFUL.
BE GRATEFUL.
BE GRATEFUL.
BE GRATEFUL.
Whatever the future brings, whatever the sick minds torture you with, whatever the present surprises you with, regardless of how bumpy the ride is, we should all be thankful. A brief conversation with Reen at Howard Train Station en route to Linden Station, Chicago made me realize this one crucial substance in which many are lacking. She told me that her new year's resolution is to first, be thankful for everything we endured in life. Be it positive of not. Many people forgot how fortunate they are. And they forgot to always think of the less fortunate. Instead of wanting more, we should all be grateful for what we have. And had. The statement hit me like a lightning strike. I'm not big on new year's resolutions, I never was. New year was like any other days for me. It's just another regular day, with added fireworks and parties. That's it.
But Reen, she opened my eyes, and for that, I thank you. I think be grateful should also top my list of resolutions. I often forget and neglect. And I often compare, demand and expect. This year, I hope it'll be different. I should have that kalimah, 'Alhamdulillah' tattoo-ed on my forehead. I should say that often from now on. I'll try.
In 2011, I'd say this to myself:
No, your future isn't as blunt as the surface of a ball, Nanue. It's just as sharp, but it's just not carved clearly in front of your face, unlike others. It probably needs time investment. And a little bit more effort than others'. You need to pave your way to it. And you shall not worry if it seems cloudy at the moment. The path will prevail soon. Trust Him.
No, you're not lonely. You have friends that you can call, 'the' family. And your time with the real family will come soon. You just need to be patient and not compare yourself with others. Deep down inside, you know you'll have a blast when the time comes. 3 years of waiting isn't for nothing. Not being there for that 2minutes of your life is incomparable to being there all your life for the past 21 years. You shall not make a big fuss out of it. Trust Him.
I think we should all sit in the corner, think and say Alhamdulillah too. No, I'm no better than you. I'm worst, or equally as worst. But I always choose not to publicize my weaknesses. And that's it. I'm okay with it, and I think you should too.
Alhamdulillah. For better or for worst.
Also, this year, I'm drinking at least 8 glasses of water per day and try to floss everyday.
BE GRATEFUL.
BE GRATEFUL.
Whatever the future brings, whatever the sick minds torture you with, whatever the present surprises you with, regardless of how bumpy the ride is, we should all be thankful. A brief conversation with Reen at Howard Train Station en route to Linden Station, Chicago made me realize this one crucial substance in which many are lacking. She told me that her new year's resolution is to first, be thankful for everything we endured in life. Be it positive of not. Many people forgot how fortunate they are. And they forgot to always think of the less fortunate. Instead of wanting more, we should all be grateful for what we have. And had. The statement hit me like a lightning strike. I'm not big on new year's resolutions, I never was. New year was like any other days for me. It's just another regular day, with added fireworks and parties. That's it.
But Reen, she opened my eyes, and for that, I thank you. I think be grateful should also top my list of resolutions. I often forget and neglect. And I often compare, demand and expect. This year, I hope it'll be different. I should have that kalimah, 'Alhamdulillah' tattoo-ed on my forehead. I should say that often from now on. I'll try.
In 2011, I'd say this to myself:
No, your future isn't as blunt as the surface of a ball, Nanue. It's just as sharp, but it's just not carved clearly in front of your face, unlike others. It probably needs time investment. And a little bit more effort than others'. You need to pave your way to it. And you shall not worry if it seems cloudy at the moment. The path will prevail soon. Trust Him.
No, you're not lonely. You have friends that you can call, 'the' family. And your time with the real family will come soon. You just need to be patient and not compare yourself with others. Deep down inside, you know you'll have a blast when the time comes. 3 years of waiting isn't for nothing. Not being there for that 2minutes of your life is incomparable to being there all your life for the past 21 years. You shall not make a big fuss out of it. Trust Him.
I think we should all sit in the corner, think and say Alhamdulillah too. No, I'm no better than you. I'm worst, or equally as worst. But I always choose not to publicize my weaknesses. And that's it. I'm okay with it, and I think you should too.
Alhamdulillah. For better or for worst.
Also, this year, I'm drinking at least 8 glasses of water per day and try to floss everyday.
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But seriously, thank YOU.