::Nanuenymous::

Help me.

I'm trapped in my own self-structured dilemma. I want to go travel. But I usually dream big. I want to go to either South Africa or Europe. See, that's the thing. I have no interest whatsoever with the US or Canada. OK, maybe I have a little bit of liking towards Banff & Jasper, but still, not too too too much. As for the US, I have no desire to step my feet on that country for some unknown reasons. And I know US is possibly the cheapest (if not one of) that I could go for. I need to set myself a new goal so that I can save up more this time, and so that I can go travel. Everytime people remind me my Europe trip, my heart just flutters. The whole month spent on my favourite continent was the greatest investment I made in my entire life. I want to regain that feeling, that passion, that desire I once had when it comes to traveling. I lost it. It's not that I can't, I just don't have that lust anymore. Or maybe, quite possibly, I just don't want to. Sometimes I wonder how the hell did I save up to almost CAD 4K last year? These days, I just can't seem to save up that much anymore. And I'm just sad. I've no one to blame but myself.

That's all I want to say and thank you for hearing me out. I'm a loser and I hope we still are friends.